I'm overcome with hate for a person I've never met ..Is this normal ?

Its impossible to hate someone YOU have never met .. YOU are obviously suffering from chronic mental illness .. YOU should remove yourself from the situation and evaluate why YOU have placed innocent people in such a dangerous position .. Your self destructive behavior is like playing russian roulette with a clip fed pistol and its time to step back and figure out exactly why YOU are in such a messed up emotional state.. Notice " YOU " is in capital letters because its YOU with the problem and YOU are the only one who can correct it..